did I go

I see talent wherever I go

and I wonder, where did mine go?

Did I lose it

Did I have it

Did I trade it

For a paycheck

Maybe some of us don't get that burden, the burden of being good, and we learn by repetition that good isn't worth the practice, that the result isn't an accomplishment, and we continue

and I wonder, where did mine go?

Did I learn it

Did I build it

Did I burn it

For a success

Maybe some of us get a different plan, a plan of being here, hating the location, hating the details, hating the people, hating ourselves, our mask and our shells, no matter how pretty or perfect

and I wonder, where did mine go?

Did I make it

Did I fake it

Did I waste it

For a self

Maybe some of are built for less, taken for all we have, stressed beyond our breaking, sucked of life forces, washed up on the shore of defeat, time and time again

and I wonder, where did mine go?

Did I miss it

Did I break it

Can I fix it

and I wonder, where did mine go?

.

and I wonder

who lost more

can they win

are they like me

talent

drifting

.

was anything mine to begin with